Finals Week

I've had 3 and a half hours sleep since noon yesterday... it is 11 now! I can't sleep, this shit job has given me the forsaken gift of insomnia. What the Fuck? I took my Physics final early so that i could sleep for the rest of the day. I think that I missed a huge question on the final because I was incredibly tired. When I got back to the apartment I fell into my fat blanket and was happy. Around 2 my eyes popped open and I instantly had this overpowering feeling of loneliness. It felt sooo weird to have this feeling, it made me feel incredibly sad. So sad that I didn't want to move; I also felt like I would feel that way even if I had people around me. That feeling sucked but I was also curious about how and why I got that feeling.

Instead of studying chemistry like I should, I've been watching reruns ever since I woke up this afternoon. Not true, I watched Ellen Degeneras and then got over my weird lonely feeling. She cracks me up.

Right now I'm listening to a Bright Eyes song... don't know the title but its making me feel mellow. I rented a movie: Dukes of Hazzard. I know, I know. Everyone told me that it sucked but I had to see for myself. Bad acting mixed with bad storyline, but OMFG! that car is awesome *wipes drool*. I also rented suspect zero for when I'm working. I've wanted to watch this for awhile but haven't gotten around to it. Now I get to sit in a stinky office, with scratchy eyes and "study for finals" while watching this movie. I'm not too worried about finals because I've worked hard all semester and now it has paid off so that I could slack on my last tests. Woopee.

I'm almost going to take drastic measure to cure this lonely feeling in a couple of weeks, if it doesn't go away. I might just grab a random guy and make him a boyfriend just to use him to fill this stupid feeling I have. Poor future boyfriend, he never knew what hit him. Its okay, me gives him lots of sex.