I have a slight obsessive compulsive disorder. I don't think it is as bad as that it could hinder any relationships, my classes, or my behavior. But it does effect my friends behavior toward me. They tend to get mad at me a lot more than when they first met me.
I have wierd ideas of clean. I think that people are dirty. I don't like touching people. My friends like to hug a lot and I don't. Some of them understand and think its funny everytime I decline a hug (this also may be from my intimacy issues as well - another blog for another day). Some people are dirtier than others. My friend Elizabeth has dreadlocks and is pale-skinned. As opposed to my roommate who brushes her hair yet doesn't use soap while in the shower or brushes her teeth at night.
I have a ritual of cleaning wherever I set up camp. I create a schedule by which I must follow everyday so that I may be clean for as long as I can. If this schedule is interrupted or I miss one step then I remain dirty. I only scrub my body with a pumic stone once a week (which is okay-clean in my book). I'm not as clean as I can get, because it would take to long. I am also really lazy which conflicts with my wanting to be clean.
I think that coats are more dirty than sweatshirts because one may wash a sweatshirt more often than a coat. I don't think that strong cologne is clean because it masks people's smell. I think my bed is the cleanest thing in my room. I wash the sheets once a week and I shower everytime I go to bed. I hate it when people think they can sit on my bed and not on the chairs in my room.
How do I get my freak on, you ask? I get hella drunk. I drink so much that I can't see the floor. Then people can touch me and I can touch... their swimsuit area. The morning after I have to clean the sheets of course.
I used to wash my hands consistently with the strongest soap I could find. My dermatologist said that I do this so much I have brought out some sort of exzema. Now I have to use organic oatmeal soap. I have cut out washing my hands so much though. Whenever I get the urge to wash my hands I can't concentrate on anything else.
I have a lot more "rules" as to how people are cleaner or dirtier than others but I can't think of them right now.
I have wierd ideas of clean. I think that people are dirty. I don't like touching people. My friends like to hug a lot and I don't. Some of them understand and think its funny everytime I decline a hug (this also may be from my intimacy issues as well - another blog for another day). Some people are dirtier than others. My friend Elizabeth has dreadlocks and is pale-skinned. As opposed to my roommate who brushes her hair yet doesn't use soap while in the shower or brushes her teeth at night.
I have a ritual of cleaning wherever I set up camp. I create a schedule by which I must follow everyday so that I may be clean for as long as I can. If this schedule is interrupted or I miss one step then I remain dirty. I only scrub my body with a pumic stone once a week (which is okay-clean in my book). I'm not as clean as I can get, because it would take to long. I am also really lazy which conflicts with my wanting to be clean.
I think that coats are more dirty than sweatshirts because one may wash a sweatshirt more often than a coat. I don't think that strong cologne is clean because it masks people's smell. I think my bed is the cleanest thing in my room. I wash the sheets once a week and I shower everytime I go to bed. I hate it when people think they can sit on my bed and not on the chairs in my room.
How do I get my freak on, you ask? I get hella drunk. I drink so much that I can't see the floor. Then people can touch me and I can touch... their swimsuit area. The morning after I have to clean the sheets of course.
I used to wash my hands consistently with the strongest soap I could find. My dermatologist said that I do this so much I have brought out some sort of exzema. Now I have to use organic oatmeal soap. I have cut out washing my hands so much though. Whenever I get the urge to wash my hands I can't concentrate on anything else.
I have a lot more "rules" as to how people are cleaner or dirtier than others but I can't think of them right now.
posted by Maroo at 12:42 PM
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