My Bloody iPod Lyell

I want God, I want poetry
I want freedom, I want danger
I want goodness, I want sin
Aldous Huxley

I know that I’m going to look back at this blog update and roll my eyes at how much I’m going to complain about nonsense bullshit.

I’m going to start with last Thursday and show how shitty my life is – no I don’t have cancer and I’m not starving to death by eating one rice grain a day… so really I should be happy every second of my being. I woke up at 6:30am after falling asleep at 1:30am with a hangover. I got on the bus bringing only yoga clothes and USB port thinking that’s what I needed. I got to Ecology and she springs a whole new schedule on us and starts lecturing on stuff that I have no idea about. This busts my ego up a bit because I know that I’m way behind on the reading/understanding of this class – panic. Yoga class is excellent because it makes me forget about all the classes I’ve taken and responsibilities. Before Eco. Lab I realize that I forgot my super-important Oceanography lab notebook.

I decide to skip out on Eco. Lab an hour into it and ride the bus home to pick it up and head back with a half hour in time to finish any questions I may have about the Lab. In Eco. Lab the teacher announces that we have to work on a paper really soon. Aaah! I suck at research papers. I finish up quick in lab and get on the bus just in time. I realize as I walk to my apartment that I forgot my keys in my gym locker. On top of that, it was a windy day and my plant blew of the balcony and busted its pot on the driveway below. I rode the bus back and got my keys, rode the bus to my apartment, picked up my notebook and got back a little late for my Oceanography lab.

This lab was irritating because I had to work with a partner and I always work faster alone. We had to find locations on mercator map and describe the depth of the sediment in the ocean, blah blah blah. It would have gone faster if my partner wouldn’t second guess me with every answer to the lab I gave; stupid bitch.

Today I remembered that I had to email my Genetics Lab partner my 4 companies I plan on presenting. I don’t have four, crap! I get on the internet fully planning on spending time on the internet wisely. I end up watching Big Brother episodes. I also plan a trip to the Grand Canyon with little brother so I have to balls to the wall tomorrow on figuring out which 2 I want and get back to my partner through email.

Pretzel Slobber

I thought that I would kick it up a bit with the blog thang when school started but I really haven’t. I’ve been feeling a little guilty – not because I think people are desperately trying to figure out what I am smearing on my face when I am dancing in front of a camera (for some reason I’ve been making a lot of Silent of the Lamb references during my conversations too, strange) but because I would like to be able to look back on past blogs to see how witty, clever and deranged I was in college or a couple of months ago on 8 beers.
I have reasoned out that my lack of responsibility in this department is because the only time I’m online is either at work (when I’m not supposed to be) or when I’m in a school computer lab. Last year I used to bring my laptop to the library and enjoy the internet for hours because of the free wireless access my school provided – and to stare at the basketball team who are required to sit in the library and “study”. I don’t bring my laptop to the library anymore because I don’t have any freaking time! I have time in between classes and I gallop to a computer lab but in these labs there are always waiting lines to get on a computer. Some people need to desperately use them to print out a paper or research something for an upcoming class, but most of the time in my case, to look up porn.
When I finally get to a computer I sit there and do silly non-school related things while I can see out of the corner of my eye The Line that I had just left. The Line is full of anxious students who need to use the computers and they have to sit there, or stand, and stare at us hungrily. I feel quite uncomfortable when I’m not doing stuff for school. I usually just check my email really fast and leave so that students can do their work.
When I was a young girl in pigtails (this is the hair style my mother thought accentuated my cheekbones) I loved, loved, and loved the movie Legend. It stars Tom Cruise, but of course I didn’t know that he was going to be a famous movie star. The Man had it on VHS so I was able to watch it as often as I like – almost creepy really.
I was so obsessed with this movie that in 3rd grade I entered a drawing in an art contest for my grade and I drew the black dancer that seduced princess Lily to the dark side and I won! But I don’t think that I mentioned I hadn’t just made up the masked dancer but stole the image.
Anyway, a couple of years ago I had learned that Tim Curry had played the Lord of Darkness. Over the years I have grown to love Tim Curry and knowing that he starred as that great character made me want to watch the movie again (I hadn’t seen the movie since my father threw out all VHS tapes in 7th grade without me knowing it). I finally bought the movie and watched it.
I was so ecstatic when I found the DVD version I bought it instantly without reading the back. I found out later that it was the Director’s Cut and had a new score. I thought “Fuck it, I haven’t seen the movie in a while and it may just have improved with this additions.”
No… certainly not. I hate, hate this score. The director also took out certain shots and added shots to scenes that created a totally different version. For instance, when Jack took Lilly to see the unicorns, instead of Jack just saying, “No, Lilly you mustn’t.” with a piercing stare and Lilly walking slowly to a unicorn to touch it, it was transformed into a corny version of Jack pleading Lilly not to and Lilly lulling the unicorn to be touched by singing to it. Ugh!!!
This wasn’t the worst part, but the new version was shit.
The worst part was the dancing scene with Lilly and the black dancer. It turned into a hokey ballet between the two when I remember it as a fabulous dance number of close up moments. Also the score sucked the life out my baby. I’m not sure what music was playing during this scene but I’m sure that violins were involved. The score was a sweet classical piece that would have been better if it were darker and not more appropriate for a little child dancing scene.
This movie has made my day a very bad day. I couldn’t get motivated to do homework because I so crushed. I finally decided that if I were to ever watch this DVD again I would watch it on mute and cancel this new score out. But this still wouldn’t do anything for the added shots the director added. One of the new shots involved Lilly and Black Dancer frolicking for a good 5 seconds – stupid.
To say the least I am saddened and I will continue to look for the original version until I die.
Next obsessed move I will by is Great Expectations with Gwenyth Paltrow and Ethan Halk, which I pretty much saw everyday in high school.